Resting, Resting

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I often wish my life looked like the above picture. A clear path ahead, beauty surrounding, 

soft grass beneath my feet.

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It seems that this is my view right now. No path, impatience setting in, and a wish for change in the scenery.

That can be a dangerous place to be.

 It can also be a hard place to be if you truly desire God's leading, then get a, "I just want you to be here for a while." Especially if you are like me: love adventure, don't like sitting around, always planning something, and always itching for action. I am not a naturally complacent person.

One of my specific prayers for this year was that God would give me a spirit of humility and contentment. 

I asked God for that after my spring schedule was all hashed out. 

I love it when a good plan comes together. :)

But God gave my schedule a firm shake, loosing my plans, leaving my schedule with a few dabs of work here and there, but no real direction to throw all my energy into.

Can anyone say, "depressing?" I thought so.

This is suppose to be the time in my life where I am actively shaping my mind, developing talents, involved in ministry, learning to serve. I have been so worried that my life right now has been a complete failure. 

 I want to be active for my Lord, in the thick of the battle, a good soldier for Him!

At the piano this morning I sang these words:

"Thou hast bid me gaze upon Thee, and Thy beauty fills my  soul...

Simply trusting Thee, Lord Jesus, I behold Thee as Thou art, 

And Thy love, so pure, so changeless, satisfied my heart;
Satisfies my deepest longings, meets, supplies its every need. 

Compasseth me round with blessings: Thine is love indeed!"

I read those words this morning, and all my worry went away. He has me here, in the place He wants me.

I am ready when He calls, and am willing to take up the sword, and yet He has called me to rest in Him during these calm and quiet days. 

So here I have lived, a soldier waiting for battle. Or perhaps the battle is raging, and I am in the thick of it.

Satan is trying his best to dissuade me from serving God in the quietest of times. Satan wants my grumbling, my disquieted heart, my griping, and all my frustration to be pointed to my ever-loving Father God.

Yes, this is the battle, and I am in need of my Father's strength and protection!

Am I resting completely in my Lord Jesus?Am I honoring Him with all this time on my hands? Can I say as Paul did: am I "learning to be content in whatever circumstances I am." {Phil. 4:11} 

"Ever lift Thy face upon me as I work and wait for Thee;

Resting 'neath Thy smile, Lord Jesus, earth's dark shadows flee.

Brightness of my Father's glory, sunshine of my Father's face, 

Keep me every trusting, resting, fill me with Thy grace."

{Jean Pigott 1874}

So with joy I am at home today, alone. With joy I have a whole list of mundane things to do, because it is to God's glory that I do them!

{Kaytra}